the answer

i've tried more of me
and i've come up dry
trading You for things
things that go away
my happiness is found in less
of me and more of You
my happiness is found in less
of me and more of You

i have found the answer is
to love You and be loved by You alone
alright! alright! alright!
You crucify me and the world to me
and i will only boast in You
alright! alright! alright!

i'm so satisfied
at the thought of You
growing up in me
covering everything
my happiness is found in less
of me and more of You
my happiness is found in less
of me and more of You

You are, You are (loved by me)
You are, You are (You're loved by me)
You are, You are (You're loved by me)
You are, You are, You are

I've been listening to the old Shane & Shane cd non-stop for the past 2 days and have realized that my heart has been longing to worship. I wish I could say that this song describes my life. I've been doing a lot of thinking tonight--and emotional purging...I am not who I want to be. My desires have been extremely worldly lately...all I care about is school, the wedding, moving in the new apt, my friends, & matt. It makes my heart so sad to realize how desrespectful I have been to my Savior. I can't even take a few minutes out of my day to praise Him for His greatness & seek His face. I'm ashamed to call myself a Christian. I am so unworthy. Yet Christ still chooses me. How amazing is that?! Just a few minutes ago I read a passage in 1 Peter that I have read a million times before, yet it is so true to me at this point in time.

"Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given to you when Jesus Christ is revealed. As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written 'Be holy, because I am holy.'" [1 Peter 1.13-17]

As I strive to be holy--I urge you to do the same. We are called to live a holy life as we serve a holy God. I praise Him for He continues to forgive me though I continue in my selfishness every single day.