in the home stretch

we're in the "home stretch" (as kelly and paul would say)...4 more days until the wedding. this time next week matt & i will be hanging out in charleston. what fun!

micro-scanny-wave

So to explain my title...Matt got a gift certificate for $70 at Target from his co-workers. We decided to go spend it and were originally planning on getting a vacuum (the one we wanted was on clearance). Well, we get to Target and look around for a while and put the vacuum in our buggy and walk down a few more aisles. What do we see?! A microwave that scans the barcode of your food & automatically knows how long to cook it for. How cool is that?! Actually, we had seen it a few weeks ago but couldn't afford it. Matt really wanted it & I thought it would be pretty cool too. So we returned the vacuum to the shelf & got the microwave (which was also on clearance). I know you guys are all jealous now. Matt & I are the cool kids on the block with our micro-scanny-wave!

Things are going well. I'm feeling better about the wedding stuff. I'm excited about all the people coming--people I haven't seen in years that I love are coming (the Matejas, the Stonekings, Paige, the Campbells...and lots more).

Last weekend a bunch of us went to the Second Chance prom put on by Ace & TJ at 95.1. The group consisted of me, Kelly, Joce, Erin, Tamica, and the gym girls...Anita, Marrissa, the redneck woman, & two other ladies. We had an amazing time dancing with seer sucker suit man and just being crazy. I'll post pictures as soon as I can.

I just found out that the kids I'm supposed to be baby-sitting this summer are going to be in Texas with their grandparents for the entire month of June. So that means I'm currently looking for a job. If anyone knows of anything let me know. As of now I've got an application for the new Dunkin Donuts opening on Celanese.

Two weeks from now I'll be at my rehearsal dinner. Oh yeah...that's crazy.

drama drama drama

I'm so extremely frustrated right now. Yesterday was my break down-i wish this wedding was over day. I'm just so tired of all the planning and spending money...and now the drama. I just want it to be over with.

the answer

i've tried more of me
and i've come up dry
trading You for things
things that go away
my happiness is found in less
of me and more of You
my happiness is found in less
of me and more of You

i have found the answer is
to love You and be loved by You alone
alright! alright! alright!
You crucify me and the world to me
and i will only boast in You
alright! alright! alright!

i'm so satisfied
at the thought of You
growing up in me
covering everything
my happiness is found in less
of me and more of You
my happiness is found in less
of me and more of You

You are, You are (loved by me)
You are, You are (You're loved by me)
You are, You are (You're loved by me)
You are, You are, You are

I've been listening to the old Shane & Shane cd non-stop for the past 2 days and have realized that my heart has been longing to worship. I wish I could say that this song describes my life. I've been doing a lot of thinking tonight--and emotional purging...I am not who I want to be. My desires have been extremely worldly lately...all I care about is school, the wedding, moving in the new apt, my friends, & matt. It makes my heart so sad to realize how desrespectful I have been to my Savior. I can't even take a few minutes out of my day to praise Him for His greatness & seek His face. I'm ashamed to call myself a Christian. I am so unworthy. Yet Christ still chooses me. How amazing is that?! Just a few minutes ago I read a passage in 1 Peter that I have read a million times before, yet it is so true to me at this point in time.

"Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given to you when Jesus Christ is revealed. As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written 'Be holy, because I am holy.'" [1 Peter 1.13-17]

As I strive to be holy--I urge you to do the same. We are called to live a holy life as we serve a holy God. I praise Him for He continues to forgive me though I continue in my selfishness every single day.

Not so happy she's about to get a bath. 

Me holding Jaylen. Jaylen is the granddaughter of my good friend Sandy from work. 

Matt holding baby Jaylen. She's 9 days old. 

My girls at work celebrating my last day.